Greyscale JKST

Forewarned is forearmed

Am i free or what?

My finals are just round the corner there is only 1 month left to go, and im still here doing irrelavant things. whatever it is... this is just another piece of my crap drawing.. hhehehe. The "Rambo" version.....

Its in our nature to be LAzy

Arts

Death OF my MUG

CLick on the picture to read my JOurnal...... lazy to retype it again....so here it is..
my nigga MUg died.....REst in Pieces My old Friend.

Counterfactual thinking

I laid my eyes on you ,
if only i could just say the right things,
if only there is more time for us,
if only i was there to hold her,

She walked into my heart with a smile,
She took my hands around her arms,
I'd travel a thousand miles back for her,
when she smile, my heart melts.

If only
If only
If only
If only

If only i never left.... she'll never leave me.
If only i knew what would happen to me.
If only i knew things would turn out this way
there will never be another IF.

NOw or Never

"My story stops here, lets be clear
This scenario is happening everywhere
And you ain't going to nirvana or farvana
You're coming right back here to live out your karma
With even more drama than previously, seriously
Just how many centuries have we been
waiting for someone else to make us free
And we refuse to see
That people overseas suffer just like we
Bad leadership and ego's unfettered and free
Who feed one the people they're supposed to lead
I don't need good people to pray and wait
For the lord to make it all straight
There's only now, do it right." (Faithless-Mass Destruction)

take action now or never..... nothing is going to happend if you dont DO IT NOW!
JUST DO IT........ but do what??
What do i want? the question that i've been asking myself........
Everything is a lie................

what i need i havent got it......it needs to be earned. I've always taken things for granted..... and that kind of attitude makes you feel like shit in the end.

all of us are motivated by emotions.... we are not machine that works totally on logic.
i need attention?i need to be wanted.... dont we all??

Life is a pile of shit, when your in a shit hole.... Every where is the same.
"Grass is always greener on the otherside" this notion that is embeded in our subconcious mind are always making people wonder why. People change we change, things change..... for things to change for the better is always better to change oneself.....
Evaluating/asses our own actions, behaviour and attitude towards the ideal person you want to be.
FOr me? Im not an individual, im like most people... Mentally Weak, emotionally driven person.
i try to be what i am not, try to be what i want to be, try to be like what i am susposed to be, try to be everything i need to be. the harder you try the harder you fall....... when your real self isnt your ideal self = depression kicks in. real self =/ oughtself = anxiety.

we're always trying to gain the balance....... never go too far. 69 is the my symbol of balance. *grin*

Care to dance?

Good evening ladies..........
care to dance??

Okay basically, i dont dance......maybe a lil bhangra that jasmine taught me (not true) hahahaha
i suddenly looked like the guy from 'American Psycho' Patrick bateman- "im on the verge of frenzy".

Jasmine's bakery!!

The freshest bread, cakes and scones that you'll get!! It opens everyday including Sundays!!WHoah! hahaha!!

Spend spend spend

i spend too much yesterday, i think?? went down to city to get my hair sort out, coz it looks like the Amazon forest already. talking about going to get a hair cut gives me the shivers, its like im allergic to hair cuts. i only go when there is a real need for it, if i keep another week i'm gonna have a combination of afro hair stlye and those long haired criminals during the Tang dynasty. haha NZD 12 bucks isnt that bad at all, quite cheap for a professional hairstylist. After that, i went to Flash Net to kill my time while waiting for my cousin to get his Hair done. $4.90 for that!! Burgerking for lunch and the "Tall stack"(Gigantic burger) cost me $8.95. Window shop till 4pm, we then hit down to starbucks and my flatwhite cost me around $3.95!! Great.. there goes my money!! arghhh..... hehe, im kinda tight these days, i've not pay the bills yet for the internet and phone bills. thats life, BIlls BIlls bills to settle......... everything is about money.

friends 

Remix mags.... 

wish you were here, to pose with me! hahaha

westfield riccarton mall!! its only 5.45pm and its already deserted!!

went to a book shop just across the street with no intention to spend a single cent, but eventually i got myself a "REMIX" magazine!! its an interesting mag, its thick full of sexy girls and funny articles.... 15 bucks with 2 free cds and a double pass movie tix to house of the wax! haha

gimme gimme love

damn..... i missed jasmine so so much, even words couldnt describe how much i missed her!!! jasmine gimme gimme love now; im dying here without you. save me..... only you can.

A ciggy a day, takes your life away.....

smoke, when you think your life is shit. It takes your sorrow away for 5mins and 15mins of your life.
A ciggy aday is sure you take your life someday!!!!! dying isnt easy for a smoker, since every smoke is harmful, you might get cancer of somesort and die a slow suffering death. euthanasia isnt legal in malaysia, unlike certain countries so, QUIT SMOKING!!!

why am i writing all this bullshit anyway???

Benefits of quitting!

Compared to smokers, your…

Stroke risk is reduced to that of a person who never smoked after 5 to 15 years of not smoking

Cancers of the mouth, throat, and esophagus risks are halved 5 years after quitting

Cancer of the larynx risk is reduced after quitting

Coronary heart disease risk is cut by half 1 year after quitting and is nearly the same as someone who never smoked 15 years after quitting

Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease risk of death is reduced after you quit Lung cancer risk drops by as much as half 10 years after quitting

Ulcer risk drops after quitting

Bladder cancer risk is halved a few years after quitting

Peripheral artery disease goes down after quitting

Cervical cancer risk is reduced a few years after quitting

Low birth weight baby risk drops to normal if you quit before pregnancy or during your first trimester the benefits of quitting

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$5 bucks sirloin steak..... had outing lastnight with a bunch of friends. we hit down to the casino just for the cheap dinner!! cant believe it its dirt cheap with good service.... better still its my 1st time down at the casino. B won $60bucks that night, playing sumthing like wheel of fortune cum russian roulette kinda thingy. seems interesting, i would like to put some money into it too afterwards...... lucky i dint. Its the devils game, once your in, your hooked!! haha thats what happend to the girls; they cant keep their hands off the pokie machines!! but anyway, i was there just for the chips and steak. after dinner... kensen wanted to order 1pound of hot chicken wings, and he tried to make his order...... the chinese waitress was rude and he put him off straight! hahaha it was funny to see him pissed.....

Funny equation

Thank you to the people in my life
For putting up with me
And thank you for the time you sacrificed
All on account of me

For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say
For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say

Fuck you to the jaded and the fake
I'd like to see what you would do
Fuck you with the judgements that you make
We're not all perfect just like you
Like you
Like you

For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say
For all the times I didn't say
The times I didn't say

Thank you to the people in my life
For putting up with me

Actually i wanted to share my thoughts and scan some of the interesting chapter of the books that i've been reading .... haha but i keep on procrastinating! arghhhh
Got home quite early today.... met some of my old friends which i've havent seen them of a long time. they came over to borrow some books from my uni library, had lunch with them.

Anyway, nothing much happend, kensen(singaporean kiasu fella,jk) came over to my place and we played some music........ jammed.

working again tonight!!! arghhh!! so many things to do.... haihh. kensen and philp persuaded me to stay back.... haihh....... i dont even know am i making the right choices. i will keep on moving with my plans!! graduate baru cakap!! hehehe