There is so many things in our mind daily, it never once stop thinking. But what is the content of those thoughts? mainly its just plain nonsense, 100% pure rubbish and a total waste of resource. why do we still ask questions when we, ourselves know the answers?? thats what i always do, keep asking questions and asking opinions of others. i admit that im mentally weak and cant make my own firm decisions, after all these years of education. i finally know that there is more to life, knowledge is a useful tool, a passport to the real world, but its not everything, whats important is to live in the present,we cant keep up with the rate of progress and the ever changing development of the country. this is bury deep in our thoughts that higher education = the insurance of a well paying job = paying of debts = a good life.... etc. the real fact is that, fresh graduate is not trained to think out of the box, not trained to solve reallife problems. Anyhow, i dont think i will put any essay argument here on the blog. What happened to "the diary" where we keep underneath the bed or hide it where no one could find?? we are now even asking people to read about our life "come come, read my diary"????

this morning,i was very reluctant to wake up from the bed, it was too good to stay inside dreamland. been dreaming about this girl, 3days straight. ever experience it?? i could actually remember my dream...i dont usually. went to uni at 10.15am and yang was late for class...... we then bugger off for a cup of morning coffee, coz theory of "better late than never......" could not be apply due to the state of lateness and going in to the wrong lecture theater. arghh....!! it was nearly 11 am and my classes was at 11.40 but i didnt went to that comp101 lecture, i dont know why?? but insteadi went for tea with vincent they all down at MRs O's cafe. we chatted about everything, and was talking abt this particular friend..... and it sounded much like my case. that guy was here for his degree but never really attended lectures.....or even done his assignments, all he does is staying at home and watch tv! all the money invested here by the parents is wasted and all the effort, losing his gf and respect of others. but it was such a pity........thats what i thought. i dont want this to happen to me , does anyone? i bet not! its yangs 22nd birthday today, and we are all going out for dinner, but before that i was writing this blog, and my aunt asked me to check her mails for her. i did that and saved her files.......... what happened was, everything i wrote was totally lost! WTF, i was totally pissed at myself, i then took my skateboard and went out, it was dark outside....... skated to the nearby park and did a few rounds and fallen off my board! ha....that was not all, while we were going into the restaurant, i saw a man at his age of 60 or so was having dinner with this petite, nice figured young chinese girl and his hand was on her lap touching her....... i said to myself "what the hell???? what is this? why is she going out with this old chap??" the worst part was, dinner was paid by that girl....... what a shame.... shes going to get the "cane" by this kuai lou, tonight i guess.

around 12.15pm i called back to m'sia and catch up with things..... and that was the end of 19/4/05. its 2 months and 3days pass when i left m'sia. wanted to go home so much.....but i couldnt.cant quit now.